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2010-01-01T03:36:00.000-08:00

hmmmm a new year begins. many things ended, many things r starting to grow.

if all these r planned and executed by God, i will accept it willingly. as HE answers my prayer and dream that i wrote on that little balloon. :)

2009-10-21T19:59:00.000-07:00

havent got the time to update my blog recently. had been quite busy, stressed and totally worn out. not that i resent it but then it is really quite tiring for mi.

everything is fine again. nothing to worry about! :)

2009-10-13T11:02:00.000-07:00

心很痛！我的心真的很痛了！！

没有人能在我的身边听我述说，没有人能够让我依靠！当我发现这一切将结束的时候，我很不舍得。我努力熬过那些时光，但是结果终究不是我所希望的。

能不能给我一个肩膀，让我靠，让我大哭一场？
我想离开。。。。带我走好不好？

当眼泪无法停止的时候，我却又想到那些给我的承诺。让我发现那些有多么不真实，让我发现原来我一直在做梦。但是，这个梦是我一辈子也不想再清醒的一个梦。

我的朋友们，你们能陪在我身边吗？就这一下子也好。。。。

我决定把事情问清楚。如果答案不是我所希望的，那就让一切结束好了。因为我累了。我等得好累了。。。

当我信心满满的相信你，我就看到我不想看到的事情。这种恶性循环只会不停的重演，而我也只能在一旁哭泣。所以，帮助我离开你好吗？

但是请相信我是真的很爱你。

2009-10-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

hahaha. lazy to upload photos already. so i shall stop about the trip le just go my facebook to see the photos la. hahaha.

have been feeling a little upset these days. and maybe a little annoyed. but please not get offended as i m not scolding anyone. but i have been reflecting about what u guys said and that is why i m feeling very frustrated.

killed quite a number of brain cells in the mean. and i think this will continue... and i need strength from someone. haha. hmmm. i think i will be fine. :)

i hope...

2009-10-05T19:24:00.000-07:00

saw this one facebook not very long ago. is really nice and sad at the same time.
cherish the old ones at home when u have the time. :)

2009-09-30T22:50:00.000-07:00

okay, now for the last day in taiwan. that day is more a free and easy day la. didnt have to wake up too early but then went to the taipei 101. hahaha. sat the local bus of cause. hahaha. was quite cool anyway.

the inside of 101 is actually only till level 5. all the high-end shops and cafes. and heard that if wanna go up have to pay money!! dumbdumb..

dessert after lunch and it is TOUHUA~! hahaha. together with one of their local dessert called AIYU. hahaha. so very nice...

after lunch, we made our way up to 101. hahaha. i got a student price for the tickets though. hahaha. didnt know that they accept my matric card. haha. so we went up to the 89th level and that is the highest the lift is able to bring us anyway. i took a photo of the speed of the lift and is really damn fast.

the round round building u see is XIAOJUDAN!! hahaha. that is where i will meet my MAYDAY again that night!!

the last place i went before my concert is the WUFENPU!! hahaha. where all the wholesalers are. hahaha. and seriously, the clothes there are really consider cheap comparing to singapore. like for guys clothings u can get for like last than 20bucks when in singapore u cannot get this kind of deals unless for older designs. hahaha. so if anyone coming to taiwan will sure have to come here.

as for the concert, is not as good as the one in singapore though. the effects are damn nice, like there are bikes flying around the stage and real cars with effect explosions. but then they are singing the same songs as what i heard in singapore but my WENROU, still singapore is the best! hahaha. i bought their SHIRT TOO!!! hahaha. and SHIN wore the same one too!! hahaha. but i dont bear to wear it yet, maybe soon ba.. haha.

there are still more to update on hk!! stay tuned.

2009-09-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

the second day at taiwan is a guided tour around the city. hahaha. the first stop is the memorial hall of their founder. i think. haha. but they closed all the halls so we can only stay on the outside and take photos.

the second stop is like a temple or whatever. i dont know. hahaha. then we were there to see how their soldiers change their shifts. and they serious cannot move at all. hahaha. their expression is so funny and stunned. hahaha. then they will start marching from the main hall and to the gate where there were 2 pitiful soldiers standing in the sun. hahaha. so that is all la.

the next stop, the mountains!! hahaha. took us like hours just to get there. and the street is called jiufen. hahahaha. is like an old street with food stores and gifts. i tried that stinking tofu. hahaha. not at stink as i thought. hahaha. but not that nice either. hahaha.

then went back down to town to eat steamboat. hahaha. and we headed down to a store opened by those mountain people. hahaha. yuan zhu ming. hahaha. and i took a photo with one of their princess. hahaha. and she is damn pretty and tall. hahaha. the last stop for the day is the night market. hahaha. went to shopping as usual. and is so very crowded and that is the place where i bought most of my stuffs for u guys. hahaha.

okay, there are still so many photos for mi to update so i will do it tml. hahaha. nights!!

2009-09-23T00:42:00.000-07:00

made my way to taiwan. hahaha but then have to transit from hongkong first. and the haze there is like sucks man. cannot really see the scenery there.

just arrived at taiwan and took a photo on the van. hahaha. and checked in the hotel. not really very nice but then just deal with it for three days ba. hahaha.

hahahaha. my hotel is just opposite ximenting. hahaha. so wanna shop just need to go downstairs can le. hahaha. very convenient la. hahaha. then traveled in their mrt to go a nearby night market. hahaha.

this is our dinner today!! hahaha. worst thing is, everything is with oyster. hahaha. but we tried the luroufan. hahaha. not really very nice anyway. hahaha.

i miss my pig's blood!! omg! finally get to eat it again. hahaha. then had desert. was the snow ice but is like the traditional one. hahaha.

tml will be the trip to the hotsprings. haha. gotta enjoy while it last!! hahaha. and i already bought clothings already!! hahaha. shit! gotta save for stuffs for friends man. :)

2009-09-21T22:14:00.000-07:00

leaving for taiwan tml morning le. haha. see u guys back in a weeks time. and will try to update when i am over there as i will be bringing my lappy there too! hahaha.

2009-09-19T03:38:00.000-07:00

okay. very long never update le. haha. so wanna show something!! hahaha.

guess what is this??

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my new COACH wallet. hahaha. even though this brand may be getting a little aunty, but i still love it. hahaha.

lastly, please enjoy the following video ba.

2009-09-07T09:14:00.000-07:00

i m very tired after all this. i wanna take a break, i wanna move away. but how would i bear to do so. i m very sad that i might not be the one..

someone to take mi away and i wanna a fairytale life where we can live happily ever after...

2009-09-05T01:23:00.000-07:00

every ppl around mi r getting very weird. is to a stage that i dont think i can handle another person being weird with mi.

ppl r doing things that they r not supposed to, ppl r not doing things that they r supposed to. what is everyone up to. when i m in a relationship, i will give everything that i can give to the other person. believe it or not whether do i look like that kind of person but i dont care. if no one believes mi then so be it.

i already dont know what m i suppose to think and do already. so for those whom u know i m talking about, please just be urself and treat mi like what u r suppose to. i just want to go on life my way with my goals. hmmm. i think i must be mad to write all these things....

it may be the amount of stress i m getting these days.... and i m very unhappy.....

2009-08-31T12:24:00.000-07:00

oh man. back to school again. went to NATAS fair on saturday morning and then went to do my hair. hahaha. and went to get a couple of presents. hmmm. was like cabbing to everywhere. wasted quite a sum of money la but think is a reflex action from vietnam as i only took cab over there. hahaha.

it was also hendri birthday so went to his house while he cook a meal for mi and some of his friends. haha. it was quite nice la. better not say anything bad about it. hahaha. then went for MAYDAY concert!! hahaha. video some of their songs down so u my wanna watch it at my fb account. i will upload there soon. hahaha. it was damn NICE! even though i think that their opening this year is not as great as last year la but this year, i cried when they sang WENROU. :(
those things that AHSHIN said is just so very nice. hmmm.

then after the concert, went back to find hendri outside PLAY. yet again. hahaha. since i didnt bring my IC out so i cannot get into the club anyway. so we were like walking around doing nothing till his friend suggested to go KTV! hahaha. cool. midnight k session till they close for the price of one pax. haha. damn cheap lor. bought alcohol in and was a little too high for the occasion. hahaha. took some pics and will upload next time ba. haha. went home at 430 that day. so very tired...

then had to go church to the next day. and jeremy was like late again. hahaha. then wanted to have dinner at mac but then ikea but there were no parking slot so we all went to IMM with his friends! to eat ajisan! hahaha. and they wanted to watch FINAL DESTINATION. i was like dots... siala.. but in the end still watch with them la. at great world city and 3D somemore lor! irrtating. i covered my eyes almost all the time. haha. then went home for dinner and xiang come over for dinner too. and jeremy asked to go eat TOU HUA again! hahaha. but we went ponggol first. almost lost our way when we came back. hahaha.

that was like the days i have been looking for after vietnam. pack with events with friends! muahahaha. love ya. :)

2009-08-24T14:42:00.000-07:00

one fine day and was video talking with xiang and sihui!! hahaha. so cool rite. haiz. coming back le but then dont know how to do report leh... hmmm.

some problems in life that i cannot handle myself and hoping that someone can guide mi and maybe in some way support my decisions. i m so sick of being alone all the time and unsure about every thing...

2009-08-20T09:19:00.000-07:00

this is rather a random post as i just found out that the NDP song this year: WHAT DO YOU SEE?, the music video was actually directed by TP STUDENT!! hahaha. i was stunned la but it was quite nice. WELL DONE!! hehehe.

2009-08-17T16:01:00.000-07:00

a poem from the movie sex in the city...

by Beethoven:

My thoughts go out to you, my immortal beloved.
I can live only wholly with you or not at all.
Be calm my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together.
Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine
Ever mine
Ever ours

2009-08-17T11:16:00.000-07:00

just ended my long weekend with events and events. so tired le...

hmmm. coming back soon and needed to buy presents back. but then, still not sure what to get for some of u there. hmm. so just accept what i bring back okay?? hahaha.

so bored now. continue slacking ba...

2009-08-06T17:40:00.000-07:00

my gosh. stupid things have been happening here man!! haha.

one of teachers here just CRACKED!! hahaha. so fed up with jonathan and just left the centre. leaving his class behind to the new teacher. haha. so damn childish la!!

and then now he is back again!! hahaha oops..

2009-08-03T11:03:00.000-07:00

i was actually wanting to blog about the situation of my life now but then i found this damn HOT video of KIM HYUN JOONG!! hahaha. i should share u see. haha.

2009-08-02T22:43:00.000-07:00

许景淳 - 玫瑰人生

该你多少在前世如何还得清
这许多衷情这许多愁绪
为了偿还你化作红艳的玫瑰
多刺且多情开在荆棘里

你又是该我什么在某一段前世里
一份牵记一份怜惜
所以今世里不停地寻寻觅觅
于是萍水相遇
于是离散又重聚

我心盼望
让浓情一段随时光流远再回到开始
我心盼望
让前世情缘延至地老天荒到无数的来世

莫忘记就算在最冷暗的谷底
只要你将该我的还给我
我也以最炽热的还给你
此情不渝

2009-07-30T16:42:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!

LOVE MY KIM HYUN JOONG!!!
can someone just learn the dance and teach mi?? hahaha. really love this song now! hahaha.

2009-07-29T10:43:00.000-07:00

OMG!! have been watching this korean show with my KIM HYUN JOONG inside!! hahaha. and in there he is married to this woman HWANG BO. hahaha. they r damn cute!

and there is this blog that posts everything about them! hahaha. so please watch if u r free! the show is called "we got married". and i seriously hope that they can actually get together. hahaha. doesnt matter whether the woman is older than the guy! muahahaha.

2009-07-27T15:35:00.000-07:00

okay. here r some photos of the vietnam theme park. but i have already forgotten the name of it. yupp so. just see some photos. truly speaking, it doesnt actually look like a theme park anyway. haha. doesnt it look more like a temple instead?? hahaha. and there really is a small temple inside. and a larger one in the center of the park.

the phoenix on the photo is also one of the rides and is the most LAME ride of all. hahaha. if anyone have been to japan disneyland and they have this ride call "its a small world" and through the whole ride, u will just keep hearing kids singing "its a small world after all"! hahaha. is really irritating and is only for kids at age 5! hahaha. this ride is similar just that is all about KINGKONG!! every turn in the tunnel u will see a kingkong there. and is so very boring and the worse is that we had to pay for the rides. not only for the entrance, we still have to pay to play! haha.

this is the 4D cineplex they had. it was fun la. have those water, bubbles and one stupid stick to poke us from the back and is seriously not fun at all!! very pain... hahaha. yupp it was like around 1 or 2 bucks for this thing.

the saddest thing is that i didnt get to ride in their roller coaster. :(
cause no one wanna ride with mi and there r way too many ppl queuing up that they have to close the ticket booth. hahaha. so this is the only tourist attraction i have been to. hahaha.

i remembered!! the name is "DAM SIM PARK". i think....

2009-07-16T17:00:00.000-07:00

okay. as some of u already know, i m currently teaching in vietnam and i only have lessons on monday, wednesday, friday and saturday morning. and my weekday classes r in the evening 7:30pm! but i practically have to at the office as usual 9am. so i have been doing from morning till my class time. hahaha. just that sometimes i need to prepare my teaching notes but that will only take mi an hour or less. hahaha. so i everyday routine on my laptop is as below:

when i on my laptop, the first thing is to check my email account. all three of them!
finish checking, check my facebook accounts. all three of them!
when reached my main account, play restaurant city, all the farming and racing. and the screen will be stuck at restaurant city.
4. then i will create a new tab and type "youtube" and enter.
find some drama to watch or else watch project runway.
will play some computer games in the mean time.
pause everything and go for lunch.
(if have lessons) check if there is anything to print for the class after lunch. if not, continue with what i m doing.
(if have lessons) go for lessons till 9pm then go dinner and then home and sleep!
(if no lessons) just continue with everything till knock off time and go dinner then home and sleep!

hahaha. so that is practically what i m doing everyday!!!! and just a few days ago, one of the manager came down for a seminar in our centre and he is like so damn tiko can!!! eeeewww!!! keep asking stupid questions about family and some r quite personal!! irritating lor. dont allow us to use singlish and will correct our english if we talk wrongly!! talk to him is like talking to the principal!! hahahaha. but weirdly is that i think he treats mi as his god-daughter. treats mi quite good la. but now that he is gone, i m so happy lor!! muahahahahahaha.

and today i was so dumb dumb to give the taxi driver wrong money..... :(
i mistaken 100.000 dong as 10.000 dong and the driver also want my money la!! never tell mi... so that means, i somehow gave him 110.000 dong for a cab fare that is only 25.000 dong!!!! i lost 8 bucks just like that!!! *sobs*

2009-07-10T18:04:00.000-07:00

i m back again!! hahaha. okay. lets start with food. the food here is totally disastrous as i dont eat vegetables. and their vegetables are like free one. when u order noodles, u will automatically get one free plate of RAW vegetables. the key word is RAW!!! u have to dip inside your soup to eat it. hahaha. but on the other hand, it is very cheap. 12,000 dong is 1SGD and a bowl of noodles is 22,000 dong which is around $1.50. hahahah. where can you find it in singapore!! hahaha.

the other food that i have tried r all the same. they have this rice paper stuff which is like popiah, hongkong dim sum, western. hahah. all very cheap!! that is why when singaporeans come to vietnam, they can easily become millionaires. and i seriously think that they staple food is noodles. they can just eat noodles all day long!! i need RICE!!

i didnt really take much photos here cause i lazy la. :P hahaha. but will try to do so. i went to their theme park last sunday. it looked more like a very big temple to mi though as there r statues, incense burning everywhere. but of cause there are rides and games la. hahaha. but too bad i didnt get to sit in their roller coaster cause the rest of us dont want to... :(

anyway, we have 2 other tp students here with us and they just went back today. so now is only mi and jonathan in the staff house... :( worst!!! hahaha.

then their cab fare here is also very cheap!! hahah. in singapore, is $2.80 when u board. in vietnam, is only around $0.80. hahaha. and the meter dont jump so fast even when waiting for the green light! hahaha. from my staff house to my office is around the distance from harbour front to great world with heavy traffic, but the cost is only around 2 bucks!! hahaha.

but the problem with this place is that there is no law on the street. the traffic lights are only there for show! and there are more motorbikes than cars so u can practically see the road separated into bike lane and car lane. hahaha. roads dont really have lanes is more like u go anywhere u want to. only the difference in the directions. hahaha. everyone can turn anywhere they want, cut into anyone they want. especially the motorbikes!! they can even go on the pavement. and they all honk like nobody business! hahaha.

in singapore, you r not a real driver if u didnt get a fine. but in vietnam, u r not a real driver if u never honk! hahaha. back home, everytime we hear ppl honk, we await for the BANG! but in vietnam, they honk but they drive on whether or not the other person know that u r honking them. hahaha. and everyday on the streets, u r like watching the horror movies. u can get scared by them honking suddenly! hahaha.

think that is all i have to say about the things here ba. hahaha. shall update u guys on what i m doing in the office everyday!! hahaha.

2009-07-04T10:30:00.000-07:00

hahaha. okay i m back to updating. haha.

both my room and my work table. haha. simple as it is. but the room is rather creeping. haha. cause at night, the wind outside will blow my window(which is covered by the curtains) and create this banging sound every now and then. didnt really sleep during the first 2 nights.

hmmm. other things to update is that i have been living everyday like a routine lor. haha. everyday wake up prepare to go work. go work le still got nothing to do. haha. so is like i bring laptop to work is to use my facebook, msn, and then watch my BOYS OVER FLOWER for the second time. hahaha. cause according to them, i will only start teaching by next week and i will hold one exam for them. and the worst is that i teaching '0level' ENGLISH!! hahaha. mine alone very 'CHUI' le lor. hahaha. but what they learning is actually like primary school work. like tenses and writing essays and letter. hmmm.

still have lots of things to talk about in here. haha. things like their food, cab fare, and their roads!! hahaha. update soon! :)

and the time here is 1 hour slower then singapore!!

2009-06-30T00:53:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!!

today is my first day in vietnam so yupp i m updating my situation through here. hahaha.

hmmm but for the first day rite, mostly did nothing la. just went to the teaching centre and then back to the hostal. hahahaha. i will be updating on the room i m staying tml.

stay tuned guys!!

2009-06-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

to everyone whom i love!!!

today is my last night in singapore le. please take care of urselves and wait for mi to come back okay?? :)

i will miss u guys and so please do miss mi lots too!!

bye everyone if i havent seen u guys these few days.. :)

2009-06-19T18:09:00.000-07:00

愛情是肉體，情歌是靈魂，
最初，靈魂寄生在肉體裡；
最後，靈魂找到了自己......　　　　　－－陳沒

2009-06-18T23:04:00.000-07:00

this is how i look with the cast! :(

2009-05-31T22:44:00.000-07:00

i m really at the verge of breaking down soon.

your image is blurring in my mind.
this is not what i wanted!
i want u in my mind every now and then.
i would never want to forget u but...

that face, that hands, those eyes, that touch...
i m slowly forgetting about all these things.

and now without u,
i have to handle everything alone.
no one to hear mi cry,
no one to console mi.

can you please come back to mi?
i wonder how long can i take it..
or can we just go back to the days before u left mi?
just back to those close days with you...

i really miss you alot...

你的身影慢慢变得模糊了。
我好希望我们不是在那种情况下分开的。

但是能认识你是我这一生中最幸福的事。

2009-05-23T23:49:00.000-07:00

today was quite a bad day to mi. is not say that is very bad but the sight of it messes my thoughts totally. went to vivo for dinner then at the mac there i saw someone. that guy whom i have nothing to say.

that guy left since primary school and today was like the first time i saw him since two years ago. he was carrying a baby with his wife beside him. i didnt believed my eyes when i saw him and i double confirm with my friends and it really is him. and that image just cannot be removed from my mind.

i needed someone to talk to. seriously or else i might go crazy.......

2009-05-23T01:09:00.000-07:00

i really hoped that my love is just like the wind..

it may not be seen but......

i hope u can feel it.

2009-05-18T21:04:00.000-07:00

企鹅是这世界上最专情的动物。
它一旦看上了对方是永远不会改变的
它们相恋，交配，生下它们的孩子
母企鹅和公企鹅会轮流母企鹅和公企鹅会轮流敷蛋
一只敷蛋，另一只则出外猎食

在外猎食的将面对许多危险
因为它随时会被海豹吃掉

但那只还在家中等待的
却永远都不知道
它只能一直等，一直等
等到那个永远不会回来的情人。

我会一直等，一直等。

2009-05-17T22:30:00.000-07:00

sorry for the delay in updating my blog. haha. always wanted to blog but then always forget about it. haha. have been doing my attachment project in school and was looking at the angels&demons news on the web and i found out that they filmed at rome. and is at sistine chapel somemore. haha. is the place the i have always wanted to go. haha. so this is my wedding plan. hahaha. i will get married in japan in their water chapel and go rome's sistine chapel for honeymoon. muahahaha.

and these few days i m like so obsessed with final fantasy soundtrack! hahaha. i m like listening to them everyday in lab. haha. and i was a little sick for the past few days. was having flu and a little mild fever. haha. see la. now i like nothing to post but then alot of things happened for like so long le. haha.

ps. sorry xiang for buying the shoes that u wanted once again.

the roof inside the chapel contains the stories in the bible.

this is judgement day.

the whole chapel.

the most famous fingers. haha. is when GOD gave life to adam.

2009-04-25T00:11:00.000-07:00

why am i feeling this way? i am looking out for you everyday, every hour, every minute and every seconds. but what i have gotten for you is just disappointments and more heartaches. now i am trying to close up myself just to wait for you but u dont seem to realise my existence.

just like one song i ever heard.
"you are free, while i am always there for you.
she may be the one you want, while i was the wrong choice you made.
dreams are just so wonderful, but you are just so cruel.
as my vision in your eyes blurs, i finally became invisible."

i was at the verge of giving up myself for you so please stop doing this to mi or maybe one fine day when u realise, i may not be there for you anymore. i may not even be found, ever again...

"the sky turned grey, rain starts to pour.

my heart turned grey, while i followed the rain..."

2009-04-23T15:33:00.000-07:00

OMG!!! i m really bored in school!! and the fucking FACEBOOK is failing mi!!! someone please come and help mi! SCREAMS!!!

2009-04-16T03:26:00.000-07:00

ever thought of living a life just like the fairy tales?? and every time u thought that it will surely end like that and it doesnt...

u first live a lonely life when someone just come into it and starting to make it so wonderful that it will just be the most treasured times in ur life. but when the clock strikes twelve, everything go back to square one. just like in all the fairy tales stories u have ever heard of. but with life, there is something different. this prince can be anything u have never dreamt of and is totally getting u off ur heels every time he holds u.

but in reality, when everything goes back in place, the prince never finds u. but when in fairy tales, the prince in so madly in love with u that they will go to ends of the earth just to track u down. but the prince in the real world would just carry on with their own lives, feel as though they had never met u before. he would never know that the gal he danced with, the hand that he held tight, would make that gal sink so deep into the dream.

when is time for the gal to wake up, she would find herself all alone in the night, recalling every detail that had happened and thinking that one day, some day that the prince would just come back to his senses and realise that he left the gal behind.

but i think prince charming is gone for good. he may never come back or i may never see him again. that why i came out with these thoughts at this late hour of the night, going through every details and talking to myself about what went wrong and what would have happened if that day did not happened.

i love you babies~!!

我们都安静了

2009-04-09T09:20:00.000-07:00

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲

在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的

如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就蹦落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什么
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里

我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一加一
努力就有结局

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是爱着你的

脸颊的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就蹦落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什么
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

2009-04-05T01:11:00.000-07:00

MISS is the word that i am thinking of nowadays. what does it really means? hmmm. dont really know too.

knew that MISS is the word that is used mostly in love letter, love songs and maybe when you confess. haha. but why? they are all about love and yet the word used is not LOVE. haha. maybe i am thinking abit too much ba but then it comes to me again.

MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS

haha. i dont know what i am thinking also le. haha.

2009-03-30T18:42:00.000-07:00

was a little boring yesterday.. went to the museum after church with melvin. saw jeremy and james in church too. haha. stunned to see both of them after so long. haha. then went to get some plug thingy with melvin and went for lunch at orchard before heading down to the museum and melvin then knew why none of my friends wanna pei mi go. went to this fashion collection by some guy named CHRISTIAN LACROIX. there are like over hundred of clothes and sketches there. haha. is so very cool can?? haha. but little did we know that we took less than 1 hour to finish the exhibition and we had nothing to do le. and i m meeting jasper xin and melisa like 3 hours later! haha. so we practically stoned in the museum and then we walked to city hall to walk about. but within like 1 hour, melvin is tired and he just came back from MTC so i let him go back first lor.

they reached about 4 plus 5 then we make our way to esplanade for our blog shop photo shoot. haha. and i really think that melisa look so nice in all the dress!! haha so wait up for our first collection~! yeah~ uploaded some of the photos in the museum!

2009-03-23T21:56:00.000-07:00

okay. many things happened these days but i m only going to touch just some events that i think is fun. haha. went to ZIRCA on sunday and that was like the very first real club after such a long time since last year. but what is disappointing is that it is another gay party. haiz. but even though the guys are touching each other in the club but one look at them, they are like hot and i seriously mean HOT! haha. most of them are like half naked and their body are like so damn HOT! but too bad that they are gays.. so wasted man. but never mind, i have my guy friends with mi even though one of them is gay. hahaha. at least i have some straight guys with mi. hahaha.

and the best of all is that the entrance fee is free. haha. it is a private event and just nice we had the email and got in for free. haha. but we still need to pay for the drinks la. i thought that the guys are going to pay for the bill for the drinks so i was thinking of opening a bottle but then i was told that total of what we had is not even over 100 bucks. so we can only get 2 jugs. and the worst is that i had to pay too. :( hmmm. so i m a little broke la but still had fun.

so we party till 2 plus and went to mac to grab a bite and we were thinking of taking the night rider but due to i have no night rider home, i wanted to walk all the way home but i was not allowed. haha. then i was offered 10 bucks to take the cab home but i didnt want so i just say i will take the night rider home with them but we waited for like half hour and i was like so tired so i slept on my friend while waiting but no bus come at all. i went to check again then there is no night rider on sunday!! OMG. waited for nothing.

so that is what i did on sunday. :)

2009-03-17T00:33:00.000-07:00

finally found out the answer!!

STUPID!! got tricked! the 100 dollars dont exist at all! hahaha. i m so dumb la. after u return the money the balance to return is only natural to be $7200.

SCREAMS.

2009-03-16T22:36:00.000-07:00

OMG!! i need help desperately!! i have this maths problem and i need help!

the question is like this:

you want to by something that is worth $7500. u dont have much money so u borrowed money from 3 of ur friends, each $2500. so when u had just enough money, u went to buy that thing. but when u reached, the sales person told u that there will be a discount and the price of ur thing is now worth $7000. so u have a remainder of $500 and u dont want to owe ur friends so much money so u decided to return $100 dollars to each of ur friends and u have $200 left with u.

when u calculate the total amount that u have to return to ur friends is $7200. and u have $200 with u so the total is $7400. but u borrowed $7500 in the first place. so where is the $100?

haiz. please anyone... who can help mi?!?!

2009-03-14T20:44:00.000-07:00

does all of u out there like my new blogskin?? hahaha. a bit act cute la but i just love it! haha.

2009-02-25T22:53:00.000-08:00

how wonderful life is, when u're in the world....

2009-02-22T23:12:00.000-08:00

i wonder why i cry.....

2009-02-17T23:50:00.000-08:00

sorry to those reading my blog and gotten nothing to read le. haha. cause having exams le so need to study hard lor. hmmm. so i shall update once my exams finished. and i need a job! be it full time or part time, i just want a job that pays well. and please not something about sales and thats all..

yupps! SO INTO FACEBOOK NOW! haha.

[` breakDown ]

2009-02-05T22:00:00.000-08:00

these few days have been very busy for mi.

now i just feel like letting go of everything. everything seems so out of place. nothing is going right in my life.

i kill so many brain cells for what?? just for one certificate that i will not use in the future?? or just for the sake of finishing my studies??

i am feeling very sad too. i work so hard and yet i feel nothing from these days. it is just like i received nothing at all and i am all alone. i have used up bits, inches and everything of my strength. i am really tired le. i am thinking everyday why do i have to waste so much time and strength on all these things and in the end i get nothing but just tiredness.

can i just breakdown for sometime??

[` busyYear ]

2009-01-22T22:23:00.000-08:00

i think that this year is going the busiest for mi le!!

Firstly, i m going to be year 3 soon then i will be taking my MP/SIP le.. then i signed up for OSIP so i will be leaving SINGAPORE for 2 months and go to VIETNAM for my attachment!! hmm. first thing i will miss my favourite food ba!! hmmmmm.. well, that is one thing.

Secondly, i m going to join MTC which is known as MENTOR TRAINING CAMP. training camp is end of march and i will be mentoring freshies for this new semester WEEK ZERO ORIENTATION. so i will be busy even before school starts. hehe..

thirdly and it is not comfirmed yet. mi and weiling and some friends might be joining AMAZING RACE and is a 4D3N thing. so as u guys know, AMAZING RACE requires running around and the worst is we will be bring our stuffs and bagpacks around too.. so we r reconsidering again..

one more thing!! i might also wanna go join OCP!! hahaha.. getting more and more overseas trip le!! haha.. this one is to go overseas for CIP haha.. and is going to LAOS. but cause i m going to OSIP and i m not very sure whether m i able to go for this OCP.. hmmm. still thinking......

MAYDAY IS GOING TO HAVE THEIR CONCERT THIS AUGUST!!! AND I WANT TO GO!!! but i m not sure whether m i back from OSIP already anot leh!! but i really wanna go!!! :(

[` birthdayCelebration ]

2009-01-14T20:13:00.000-08:00

okay!!! a series of photos and details of my birthday celebration!!

1. friends in school

weiling and melisa bought the same thing for mi.. haha.. so cute lor. both of them bought DOMO for mi and then shaowei gave mi BALLOON! then weiling dont want to walk with mi and the balloon... :( cause she say very paiseh.. hahaha. but i like it alot leh.. but something really paiseh is that when going for music lec, went into the lift with weiling, then got 3 guys and the important thing is on 2 of the guys. when i went in, 2 of them said "happy birthday" to mi.. haha.. then one of them started singing "祝你生日快乐" and started guessing my age!! hahah.. so paiseh!!! hahah..

2. celebration with clique!

rush down to grand cathay to meet jasper they all for dinner. haha.. went to eat ASTONS. it is really very cheap! one main course and 2 side dishes with drink can be as cheap as 10 bucks!!! haha..

they are just playing with my digital cam!! haha.

with my best sister aka baby!! hehe.

"Be Happy" present bag!! wonder what is inside??

be careful hor!! R-RATED!!

oops!!!! :P

everyone had a happy ending rite?!?! hahaha.. love all you guys! and my BABY!!!

[` happyBirthday ]

2009-01-13T00:08:00.000-08:00

happy birthday to mi

happy 19th birthday to mi!!

[` veryVerylatePost ]

2009-01-12T17:46:00.000-08:00

okay everyone!!!! hahah.. took mi quite a very long while to get this post out! hahah.. yupps. these r the photos on new years eve.. celebrated with lao da they all.. and i totally missed the fireworks!! :(

well, just enjoy the photos la. haha..

heyhey!! left is jin and other is boon kok gf (:P sorry ah.. didnt get her name)

yupps! i am RED!!! haha.. drank quite a lot la! haha..

cant you see?!?! couple photos!! hahah.. that was xuehui new gf!! haha.. quite cute wor!

baby!! dont say i never post our photo hor! haha.

tml is my birthday le!!!!!!!

my 19th birthday!!!!

2008-12-25T15:00:00.000-08:00

merry christmas everyone!!

2008-12-20T21:58:00.000-08:00

yesh!! another post with pics. this time is about that stupid 2 day course at school. it is so boring and the teachers a bit very high la. haha. is like teaching kindergarden kids. haha.. so i brought my cam to school and we took photos. but most of the pics still with weiling and i havent get them yet! hehe.

yesterday, a normal friday, went to watch jasper danzation. never knew that jasper can dance so well. haha. even though only for the start. :) but dont know why xiang looks like the one who danced the most! and more popular.

today, went to rebond my hair! haha. plus my frindge is like OMG! haha.

and the one below is one od my other creation! haha..

[` reallyLongupdate ]

2008-12-11T23:19:00.000-08:00

hello everyone! sorry for those lyrics and songs cause i really have no idea of what to blog about. then jasper said about posting pics while i have a digital camera but then the most dreadful part of that is to take the photos out of it! hahaha.. but then i think i still have to do it so i will be posting all the photos i have taken ever since i had my camera! so enjoy..

was just checking out my new digi camera when i first got it. haha.. look how cute bobo is.. :)

snapshot of melisa in the lecture hall. forgotten to turn off the flash! haha.. good thing that no one actually notice it.

another shot of myself when going to meet jasper for dinner. that's us at HANS. and one of those decos on orchard.

i am just so talented to take photo like this. haha.. artisic rite?? :) the other one is what it is really supposed to be.

self portraits!

went to clarity cafe for dinner with jasper and vincent. haha. SNAPSHOTS!

what we ate! haha.. so very full!

to really end that day well...

RAINBOW!!

[` aNewpointInlife ]

2008-12-10T21:34:00.000-08:00

我坐在床前，望着窗外，脑海里浮现以往的画面。总觉得时间过得很快，一下就把所有的记忆偷走了。好像还记得七岁的那年，和大家一起抓住的那只蝉，我们都以为能停止时间。但时间却不等人，一转眼就到了十七岁了。在那年，交了男朋友，他吻了我的脸。我们都以为我们能到永远... 这世上是否有任何事情能让永远都不改变。让我们守护着那美丽的回忆，不让人间事破坏它。让我们都拥有着那年的青春，让那生离和死别都离我们远去。但这些渴望又有谁听见？我坐在床前，忽然回头看，那是谁？是谁在我背后沉睡？那一张苍老的脸... 好像是我... 在我身边，有爱我的，我曾深爱的人。我还来不及... 来不及带走所有的遗憾与眷恋。我哭了。这世上是否有那么一滴眼泪能够洗了我这一生中所有的后悔。就让这滴眼泪变成大雨吧，把我眼前的视线都模糊吧。这样我就能有多一次的机会把我的故事重新改写，让我能再一次对他说声对不起... 这世上又是否有个世界是永远都不会天黑的呢？星星，月亮，太阳和所有万物是否会有一天都听我的指挥呢？这样我会让月亮永远都是满月的，让我们处的季节里永远都是春天。我也想让我身边的事物都和我们一样相爱，就像树梢如何紧紧地抱着树叶。那么这些愿望，又有谁能够听见... 我们总会有一天回到我们原来的地方。当到了那个地方，我们又将变成什么呢？我想... 我想变成这世界上永远不会凋谢的玫瑰。这样，我能够永远的那么骄傲，永远的那么完美，不管四周环境如何都从不妥协。因为我不想我未来的生命最终只能像一张纸屑，白白浪费，还倒不如活得像一片花瓣，虽不是永远的灿烂，但也曾经鲜艳过... 我或许能够化为一张书签。这样我能够把时间静止在那一天，静止在那满载笑脸而且是我人生中最美好的那一年。在年少时光里，我们书包里带的都是欢笑，眼中都是无猜与无邪。也就是在这一个年华里，我们能无法无天... 时光能不能不要停止？就像一首诗篇永远找不到句点，能拔去噢们的青春痘所在那个岁月里。在那时候，所有的人都很单纯。男孩就有吉他，女孩就有舞鞋，大家都忘了生活中所有的苦痛，只留下甜美的记忆... 明天是否会有些不一样？明天能不能让我重新得再活一次？好让我能再一次感受到那曾经挥霍的日子，也就这样我的故事才不会那么的后悔。这些愿望，这些期许，到底有谁能听见？我真的不想要告别！但一切都太迟了。我现在坐在床前，看看自己的指尖，一切都已经如烟...

[` areYouhappy ]

2008-11-22T22:56:00.000-08:00

你不是真正的快乐

[` verySadded ]

2008-11-18T11:28:00.000-08:00

WHY NO ONE FREE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

hmmm.. think have to give up le lor... i just want the tickets ma!!! :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

very sad!!! haiz....

[` iWant ]

2008-11-11T23:38:00.000-08:00

I WANT!!!!

五月天［真正的快乐］新歌飙唱门票兑换活动

Be the first to get the free ticket to watch MayDay’s concert on 4 Jan 2009!
Just show your matric card and their latest album,后青春期的诗(Singapore edition) to redeem your ticket. Be the first to get the free ticket to watch MayDay’s concert on 4 Jan 2009!

Collection Details
Venue: 93.3FM Music Mobile Van @ TP PlazaDate: 21 Nov 2008, Time: 1.15pm
* 1 ticket per matric card and album (a redemption ticket is attached in the album)** Tickets on first-come, first-served basis.

[` updates ]

2008-10-31T16:34:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. i also not sure want to update from where.. my korkor just got enlisted into army last friday.. hmm.. whole house become a little quiet le.. hahah.. cause no more like fighting and shouting between him and my mama.. haha.. but then okay la.. just a little not used to it la..

then in school, just wanna say about my music lessons.. haha.. it is getting a little interesting with all the different kinds of videos.. haha.. then yupp, with that handsome teacher!!! hahaha.. then now that weiling is always talking to mi about DOMOKUN!!! hahah.. and i admit that it is really cute la..

this is weiling domo!! hahah.. it is a key chain.. and is like 5bucks plus.. hahah..
then the next pic is when 2 DOMOs come together!! hahaha..
is so cute rite?? hehe..

it was weiling and shaowei birthday.. bought flowers for them.. that weiling still want mi to take the flower for her!! hhaha.. then shaowei didnt come school!!! hahaha.. but heng still got davin help mi take to her.. hahah.. i just like flowers so much!!! hehe..

this is just a random one.. cause is COOKIE MONSTER!! haha.. jasper favourite!! hahah.. jealous?? but urs is also cute la.. hahah.. it just look so silly..!! hahahah...

oh yeah!! and is HALLOWEEN!!! hahaha..

[` dontKnowwhy ]

2008-10-21T19:35:00.000-07:00

today is the second day of school.. boring as usual.. hahah.. took a photo of my hand.. this scar i also dont know when did it come out from.. hahaha.. weiling say maybe i carry books then scratch it.. hmmm.. bought all my books le.. today that found out that i have 4 papers for my term test and only 2 papers for my CA!!! hahahah.. so good!! :P

[` mostRegrets ]

2008-10-17T11:34:00.000-07:00

i m very sorry!!! i really didnt now about it!! no wonder i had this bad feeling yesterday night and i started crying.. i really didnt expect all this to happen just like that.. we were just beside u the day before.. i will miss u always and forever.. when u get to heaven, it will sure be some beautiful place that u can just look over all of us and ur family and all ur other friends.. thanks for all the memories, jokes in class..

[` stupidTimetable ]

2008-10-16T11:25:00.000-07:00

My NEWEST timetable!!

HAHAHAHAHAAHAH!!!! i friday no class!!! WWWWHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE............

[` worstDay ]

2008-10-16T00:08:00.000-07:00

The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,

Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,

Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,

Some try to hand me money they don't understand,

I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,

I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,

How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...

I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,

I said there's someone

I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year

Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,

If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...

I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...

I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy

Who's waiting on a girl...

Oohoohwoo

There are no holes in his shoes

But a big hole in his world...

Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,

And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,

And you'll come running to the corner...

Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved

I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...

I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...

I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

just somethings inside that i wanna pour out..

i know u not happy.. but then if it is really so unbearable for u to even look straight at out eyes, then be assured that i will never ever appear in front of u anymore.. but just want to let u know that i m actually very sad.. more of a disappointed.. didnt expect a father to not understand her own daughter.. but then u r still the father that i once loved the most.. that was once a long time ago....

[` getBacktoMe ]

2008-10-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

Demi Lovato - Get Back

Don't walk away like you always do

This time

Baby you're the only thing that's been

On my mind

Ever since you left I've been a mess

(You won't answer your phone)

I'll say it once and I'll leave you alone

But I gotta let you know

I wanna get back

To the old days

When the phone would ring

And I knew it was you

I wanna talk back

And get yelled at

Fight for nothing

Like we used to

Oh, kiss me

Like you mean it

Like you miss me

Cause I know that you do

I wanna get back

Get back

With you

Don't look at me that way

I see it in your... eyes

Don't worry about me

I've been... fine

I'm not gonna lie

I've been a mess

Since you left

And every time I see you

It gets more and more intense

I wanna get back
To the old days
When the phone would ring
And I knew it was you
I wanna talk back
And get yelled at
Fight for nothing
Like we used to
Oh, kiss me
Like you mean it
Like you miss me
Cause I know that you do
I wanna get back
Get back
With you

You were the only one I wanted

And you were the first one I fell for

You're the only one that im in need of

And I don't want to be lonely anymore

(Get back) Get back

Oh, kiss me

Like you mean it

Like you miss me

Cause I know that you do

I wanna get back

Get back

I wanna get back

Get back

I wanna get back

Get back

Yeah!

[` flavorOflife ]

2008-10-07T22:52:00.000-07:00

Utada Hikaru - Flavor Of Life

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
Sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

Tomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten de
Shuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsu
Ato ippo ga fumidasenai sei de
Jirettai no wa nande?

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
Sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

Amai dake no sasoi monku ajike no nai doku
Sonna mono ni wa kyoumi wa sosorarenai
Omoitoori ni ikanai toki datte
Jinsei suteta mon janai tte

Doushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to "uun. nandemo nai"
Sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunai
Sinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai
"Aishiteru yo" yori mo "daisuki" no hou ga kimi rashii janai?
The flavor of life

Wasurekakete ita hito no omoi wo totsuzen omoidasu koro
Furitsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yo

Daiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana mirai
Teni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai
"Arigatou" to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
Sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

[` justLovedthisSong ]

2008-09-22T22:08:00.000-07:00

萧敬腾-奋不顾身

大雨像下了一世纪
我用手臂撑起屋顶
曾经你就在我怀里
让我风平雨停
我好想你

我是沉默的行星
移动都以你为中心
只是末世一来临
一切化为灰烬
都回不去

我用我的生命爱你
不让尖锐的世界伤害你
不懂花言巧语的人
“我爱你”往往来不及证明

我用我的生命爱你
忘记自己也毫不留情
爱一个人奋不顾身
喔辛苦也觉得平静

时间是唯一的线索
印证我没说的承诺
当我放开你的手
如果有点振动
不是发抖

我用我的生命爱你
不让尖锐的世界伤害你
不懂花言巧语的人
“我爱你”往往来不及证明

我用我的生命爱你
忘记自己也毫不留情
爱一个人奋不顾身
喔辛苦也觉得平静

穿过巨大的伤口
我找到当时的温柔
有始有终就算收获
我从不在乎心痛

我用我的生命爱你
不让尖锐的世界伤害你
不懂花言巧语的人
“我爱你”往往来不及证明

我用我的生命爱你
忘记自己也毫不留情
爱一个人奋不顾身
喔辛苦也觉得平静

我甘心因为我愿意

[` sorryForeverything ]

2008-09-15T13:00:00.000-07:00

sorry for the late update!! haha.. really am busy these days.. so i shall update with all the photos i have taken from the last date...

on 28/9:

met up with hendri to get his hair cut!! haha.. it was some cool hair he got now.. haha.. cool until he lost his chance of changing job!! haha.. cause the boss dont understand his style at all.. haha.. so he just got to stuck with kallang till dont know when le.. haha..

on 29/8:

it was hendri birthday la.. haha.. went to eat Japanese village.. haha.. wanted to give him surprises de but then is maybe my acting not very good la.. haha.. then together with henry and his mother, we gave him an unforgettable birthday celebration.. haha.. he didnt want to sing birthday song but then i just embarrassed him in front of everyone!! haha..

on 31/8:

went to PLAY for some teacher's day eve party.. full of underage de la.. haha.. hendri went too.. haha.. it was actually quite fun there.. went to tentric to drink first.. then went over to PLAY and it was like packed till mad le.. haha.. then went maxwell to makan.. haha..

from 2/9 till 6/9:

just working like full shift through out.. haha.. it is like so damn boring.. haha.. nothing to write about work as it has always been the same for mi!!! hahaha.. well.. all day long, mi and hendri just sit behind the counter and play.. haha. play whatever we can find la.. take photo, play dare.. hahah..

we both wore black!!

we both wore white top!!

finally something different.. hahah..

from 8/9 till 10/9:

had class chalet then.. hahah.. was okay lor.. cause i was actually not there when they are playing games and barbecue.. on the second day, i was like working for the whole day.. when i reached back there, my gals all went home.. hmmm.. a bit stupid lor.. like we went there for the first day and we just went home the second nite.. hahah.. then went back to pack my bag and went to my boyboy house.. from there... I LOST MY PHONE!!! hahah.. then what i think is also something good la.. haha.. can change phone finally!! hahahha..

on 11/9:

went to make my hair.. hahah.. i had it permed.. ahaha.. but too bad i didnt have a phone then so cannot take photo.. :( so will have to wait till my phone is done then can post up.. hahah..

on 12/9:

went st james with my boyboy and gang.. hahah.. it was so cool.. first time at st james ktv pub.. haha.. the gals sing ktv, the guys had their gathering.. haha.. in the end.. the guys were drank.. hahaha.. then i can only carry my boyboy back to my house lor.. hahaha... it is just so funny to see all their reactions when they are drank la.. and they are crazy when they are drank.. hahha.. so my boyboy is like talking so loud, seeing things that i dont!! hahha.. well then nevermind.. as long as he can get into my house and he can bath can le.. hahaha..

on 14/9:

pei hendri go get his ticket for his trip.. so it is at golden mile la.. and it is like so stink!! haha.. is cause of the food they sell la.. haha.. then went to eat one very nice meatball noodle.. hahah.. that is what hendri say la.. haha.. but i think is okay only la.. cause is like alot of BEAN SPOUT!! hahah.. i also didnt know if not i will tell them dont put le.. haha.. then went to meet jasper to eat dessert.. hahah..

[` myLoveforYou ]

2008-08-29T00:34:00.000-07:00

我不要求一吻
我不奢求一笑

因为你的一吻一笑
都能让我感到骄傲

现在的我
只要亲吻眼前的空气
就已足够了

因为它们刚刚亲吻了你..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
it is a shakespears poem.. but is in the chinese version.. haha.. hear it on tv and is not word for word.. :)

[` worstDayinLife ]

2008-08-25T01:34:00.000-07:00

actually wanted to post about so many things about today.. but then i think i shall just keep it in my heart.. if anyone wanna know more just come to mi ba..

lets just start from the day before...
went clubbing at MOS.. saw a friend there and it was her birthday.. she just came over to mi and just kissed mi.. haha. my friend behind mi was like stunned!! i was stunned too la.. haha.. but little then i know that it was a start of the nightmare...

first nightmare concerns my friend.. i dont think it is good for mi to disclose it here.. the second nightmare is that i lost my 50 bucks.. and it is my whole week allowance.. so i m just going to stay home the whole week and try to save money for hendri birthday celebration and eat instant noodle ba.. haha..

then there was yesterday...
cause of clubbing, slept till 3+ and i was like late for worship practice.. after that went to meet hendri to pei him go back kallang to return summerlily keys.. haha.. so stupid to bring the keys back home without noticing it!! haha.. then went to watch fireworks with henry parents.. haha.. it may sounded weird la.. got mi, hendri, henry parents and his sister.. haha. but no henry.. haha.. the fireworks was like so damn nice lor.. it was like for half hour leh!! but we missed the starting and we were in the car so we drove around to padang there to watch everything.. hahah.. it was like so cool!!!

then went to watch movie with jasper and hendri.. and it was the most gross movie that i have ever seen in this year!! the movie was MIDNIGHT MEAT TRAIN.. it is like so stupid la.. a thriller then in the end got alien come out.. EEEEE.. so stupid to even think about it.. haha..

there goes the past few days lor.. haiz.. exams coming le.. have to really seriously study le.. but i just heard something very nice.. and i think i will just remember it for life!! hahah.. nothing la.. haha..

[` touchedByhisWords ]

2008-08-17T23:03:00.000-07:00

Jesus You.

You hold the world with Your unfailing love.

The Heavens sings Your praises from above.

In Your name lips shall praise and knees shall bow.

Father You.

The universe exalts in who You are.

The stars declare Your wonders far and wide.

How majestic is Your love throughout my life.

In You...

I find my peace.

In You...

I bend my knees.

You are Lord of Heaven You shall reign in all the earth.

I humbly bow before Your majesty.

Now I will sing Your praises and I will sing forevermore.

I'm captivated by Your love in me.

this song just totally touched my heart!! i heard this song and i m totally in love with their album and i just bought the album on the spot.. this song is by TRUE WORSHIPPERS - CAPTIVATED.. anyone out there should try listening to their album and especially this song..

enjoy guys.. :)

2008-08-12T23:54:00.000-07:00

this is my second tattoo!! haha.. a bit blur cause is i ownself take de.. still a bit painful la but is really very nice!! it is purple in color!! haha..

but at that point of time, i really want to die le!! very pain like mad sia! actually thought of just fainting there la.. haha.. but then i still pull it through and i think i really tell myself that this will be the last one!! too painful to handle it le.. haha.. but if u guys wanna take a look maybe need sometime.. cause i think i wanna wait for it to heal finish le then show out!! hahah..

LOVE IT!! ("v")

2008-08-11T23:44:00.000-07:00

我的心里面已经有些想法了但是我真的不想破坏这些我们经历过的风风雨雨。

请让我再想想，让我整理这些很乱的心情。但是请你尊重我的决定，因为不想伤害你所以我不想让你抱有太大的希望。
对不起。

[` backAlready ]

2008-08-06T13:24:00.000-07:00

hey everyone!! i m back.. exams coming le.. so all of u out there please study hard okay!! :D
actually wanted to blog about my normal life de but then had been watching 命中注定我爱你.. so wanna share some of the songs which actually make mi cry.. :)

心愿便利贴 - 元若蓝&吴忠明

一天一天贴近你的心
你开心我关心

一点一滴我都能感应
你是我最美的相信

等不到双子座流星雨
撒满天际

先点燃九只仙女棒代替
最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
看你眼睛有幸福的倒影

把你的讨厌宅急便送到天边
平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
存浪漫的心愿便利贴贴成无限就是我们最富有的宣言
把你的喜欢每一天复习两遍
惊喜的语言我的天通通灵验
你和我的心愿便利贴贴心里面收集感动给以后怀念

一天一天贴近你的心
一点一滴我都能感应
你是最美的相信.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

半情歌 - 元若蓝

花接受凋零
风接受追寻
心的伤还有一些不要紧
我接受你的决定

你将会被谁抱紧
唱什么歌哄他开心
我想着天空什么时候会放晴
地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的总是未完成的
我只能唱著一半的歌

我的明天快不快乐都是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的总是未完成的
另一半的歌

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

我的快乐 - 锦绣二重唱

徘了徊了走了错了哭了懂了累了倦了困了
烦的乱的梦的都是真的
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的
永远的失去的怎么忘呢

你坐过的沙发困了你爱的音乐
听了我等着你等成了摆设

我的你的他的好的坏的难的灰的蓝的黄的
酸的甜的苦的都还记得
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘得
我想要换你了真的不想要了只得疯了

环岛的火车载着我第几天了
忽然发现这一刻我不想你了

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的
离开不是你给了我的选择

疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的
拥有的失去的怎么忘呢非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我想要换你了真的不想要了
只得只得放了放了忘了

can come to mi to get the songs!! they are really nice!! :)

[` newEntertainmentinLife ]

2008-07-17T15:11:00.000-07:00

HEY EVERYONE!! THERE ARE SOME VIDEOS THAT WOULD LIGHTEN UP UR DAY!!

qiingg's PRODUCTION

PROUDLY PRESENTS

.........LUCAS...........

first LUCAS video!!

our FRIENDSHIP is OVER!!

LUCAS got no voice le!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LUCAS!!
LION ROARS!!!

enjoy guys!!

[` nothingMuchtoUpdate ]

2008-07-14T00:48:00.000-07:00

haha.. never update for so long le.. haha.. cause got nothing much for mi to update also leh.. even if u ask mi to update about my past few weeks/months, i think like got too much to say then very mafan leh.. haha.. so i think i just wanna share this song that i think is really very nice.. :)

BuckCherry - Sorry

Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same

Cause everything inside
It never comes out right
And when I see you cry
It makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

Cause everything inside
It never comes out right
And when I see you cry
It makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry!

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry

[` stupidQuizagain ]

2008-06-19T19:00:00.000-07:00

Q: If you could ask God for one thing, what would it be??
A: please help with the non-believers of this world!!

Q: If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
A: to have my dream career to come true.. (still not sure what is it yet!!)

Q: What will your dream wedding to be like?
A: a ceremony held at the water chapel with my hair very long, very beautiful white gown with my beloved husband beside mi..

Q: Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
A: think so..

Q: What's your ideal lover like?
A: my baby!!

Q: Which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone?
A: i dont think they can be cmpared.. both are very blessed in some ways..

Q: Do you love your life currently?
A: still okay la.. still satisfied..

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached , what would you do?
A: just wish for the best for him.. but maybe just want to spend at least some time with him everyday.. no matter what.. can see him happy also can le.. and he is willing to spend time with mi can le.. as least i know i m in his heart.. haha..

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A: okay la.. not really..

Q: Is being tagged fun?
A: nope.. dont really like to do quizzes.. haha..

Q: How do you see yourself in ten years time?
A: didnt really think about it yet..

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
A: everyone that was once in my life..!!

Q: What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
A: fatty, very fat, fattest!! haha.. and cute at the same time..

Q: Would you rather to be a single & rich or married but poor?
A: married and poor.. but maybe single and rich.. haha.. can go shopping everyday!!!

Q: What's the first thing you do every morning?
A: stone..........

Q: Would you give all in a relationship?
A: try to..

Q: If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
A: hmm.. not sure.. mayebe both?? hahahahaha..

Q: Do you have a pet?
A: nope..

Q: Are you different at home/in private from what your friends know you from?
A: yupp.. a little.. hehe..

[` stupidJokes ]

2008-06-14T01:07:00.000-07:00

some stupid jokes that baby told mi.. haha.. have a good laugh..

joke #1
-what is the color of the ocean??
-blue??
-do you know why is it blue?? cause the fishes told mi..
-but fishes cannot talk!!
-in the water the produced 'blue blue' sounds.. that is how i know..

joke #2
-have u heard of the ocean joke?
-no..
-it is too deep for u to understand anyway..

joke #3
-have u heard of the constipate joke??
-no..
-sorry.. it is not out yet..

joke #4
-have you heard of the butter joke?
-no..
-cannot tell u.. later u spread around..

the red is mi..
the blue is baby..

[` quizTime ]

2008-06-10T01:18:00.000-07:00

this is some quiz that i have been tagged to do from yokie!! :)

#1 what is the most important thing in your life?
- everything ba.. :)

#2 when was the last time you bought smth with your own money?
- supper just now?? haha..

#3 where do you wish to get married?
- japan.. at the church in 梁静茹-崇拜 mtv.. it is a church in a middle of a river.. :)

#4 how old do you think you will be perma owned by your love?
- dont know leh..

#5 are you in love?
- forever in love..

#6 where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
- a damn stupid restaurant at chinatown with family.

#7 name the latest book you bought?
- At first sight - nicholas sparks

#8 what is your full name?
- Tay Zhi Qing

#9 do you prefer your mother or your father?
- mama

#10 name a person that you really wish to meet in real life?
- hmmm.. no one..

#11 Christina or Britney?
- think christina ba.. dont really like britney..

#12 do you even do your own laundry?
- yupp

#13 the most exciting place you want to go?
- sistine chapel.

#14 hugs or kisses?
- huggies!!

#15 point out 5 things about the person who tagged you
- chan yoke leong: - fat,stupid,dumbdumb,cute la,just loves

#16 8 things i'm passionate about..
- games
- songs
- music
- singing
- friends
- design
- creating stuffs
- sleeping

#17 8 things i say too often..
- anything lor
- u very sucker leh
- dumbass
- whatever la
- wa lau
- dumbdumb la
- *hahahahahaha*
- :P

#18 8books i read recently..
- actually i dont know leh

#19 8 songs i could listen to over & over again..
- all the songs in my mp3

#20 8 things i learnt last year..
many things la.. haha..

[` moreUpdates ]

2008-06-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

hey ppl.. my updates for now.. i think i shall just post pictures and put some tags below them.. for more details for those events, please come straight to mi.. thank you!! haha..

these shoes are from the shop CLOSETTE.. 138 bucks!! i WANT!! haha..

this pants i very nice.. a little like white silver.. so pretty!! 68 bucks!! haha..

this dress is quite nice la.. a little like sleeping dress.. haha.. 89 bucks!! haha..

and lastly this one.. i like this one alot too.. very cute dress.. 99 bucks!! haha..

the other day, xiang dyed her hair!! haha.. some stupid photos after her hair cut!!

been working these few days and thinking alot of things.. just wanna say that i still have 5 more days........

[` loveThissong ]

2008-06-03T17:14:00.000-07:00

If God had a name, what would it be
And would you call it to his face
If you were faced with him in all his glory
What would you ask if you had just one question

And yeah yeah God is great
Yeah yeah God is good
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home

If God had a face what would it look like
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like heaven and in Jesus and the saints and all the prophets

And yeah yeah God is great
Yeah yeah God is good
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
He's trying to make his way home
Back up to heaven all alone
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in rome

And yeah yeah God is great
Yeah yeah God is good
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
Just trying to make his way home
Like a holy rolling stone
Back up to heaven all alone
Just trying to make his way home
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in rome

the song in my background.. heard it somewhere and it somehow make you wonder on some things..

what happens when God is just beside u?? what would u call him?? will u really just call Him God?? or what will u ask Him?? what will look like?? wonder will He be as handsome as what all the movies had portraited Him??? haha.. just think about it!! :)

[` keepingMyselfbusy ]

2008-05-31T13:23:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the start of my job.. everything was not what i expected.. it is really very boring just standing around and sitting behind the cashier.. in another way, it was a very easy job.. haha.. this company has a total of 4 different shops.. BRASSE, SUMMER LILY, CLOSET and CHICK OUT.. haha.. but i only went to BRASSE and SUMMER LILY..

the stuffs are really like expensive till u can die ah.. haha.. in BRASSE, they only sell suitwear.. so mostly those office women, aunties will come to patronise.. and in KALLANG, there is not much of these ppl around.. and therefore, i was basically just standing by the door, sitting behind the cashier, listening to the radio, playing with the calculator, pranking xuehui ge with the office phone and passing time just like that.. haha.. IT IS SO BORING.. but then it is good morning.. but the manager, JUNE, wants to teach mi how to serve and wanted mi to learn beside her, i was being taken to SUMMER LILY.. :(

sales at SUMMER LILY always hit the highest, thats what they always say.. and JUNE also say that wherever she is, the sales follows her.. but that was very true.. when i was there, the ppl are just coming in and buying things.. i closed a few sales myself.. haha.. finally.. haha.. but then still i m not allowed to touch the cashier.. boon kor came for interview and he had got in le.. so can go lunch together sometime.. haha.. just waiting for jasper to finish his project then see whether he want to work anot.. haha.. like that all of us can just get even with AARON!! hahaha..

i have been thinking about keeping myself busy for these few weeks.. will be having term test next week.. going to study.. just wanted to stop thinking of u for just awhile..

it is not that i want to be sad.. u made mi become like this.. i m sorry..

[` heartBroken ]

2008-05-29T12:21:00.000-07:00

i m very devastated by what u have done to mi.. i m very heartbroken now.. my heart is bleeding, soaking with all the sadness that u have caused mi..

i was still thinking this morning that i wanted to trust u when u said 'yes'.. but now i m thinking.. what for?? things have been bad..

to yokie: sorry for these things.. promised that there will be no more sadness.. but i cant help but cry now..

[` proudOfmyself ]

2008-05-28T21:44:00.000-07:00

i m so proud of myself to have created such wonderful designs!! haha.. everyone says it has the standard of those real designers..

haha.. wow.. have fun looking around..

i m very sad.. very disturbed.. by some facts that i couldnt and wont want to face.. what happened to the person i knew before?? where is it?? i can no longer feel the way i do before.. and now, all i can do is wait.. waiting for some miracle to happen then would change all our lives forever.. a miracle that i have been waiting for a whole lifetime.. i m just someone ordinary.. wanting just some ordinary things from life..

can i be like what i was before??

[` desperateForlove ]

2008-05-26T23:54:00.000-07:00

就突然很想用华文来写这篇文章。这几天的事情我真的是受够了。我已经几乎快要崩溃了。

我知道我之前做出的决定伤害了一个人。其实我也不知道我到底要的事什么。再这漫长的生命之旅，人们往往都会做出很多愚蠢的决定。我这次所做的决定应该也算是一个非常愚蠢的决定。

我的生命现在又陷入了混乱当中。我伤害了一个人，而现在我好像正被另一个人伤害着。这算什么，我到底算是什么！你从没跟我说过你喜欢我，我们也从没多说过几句话。你的事我其实一点也不了解。我不问，你也不说。那这又算什么？我们之间能不能像其他的情人一样？

你是不是真的喜欢我？还是只是把我当成是你其中的一位“女”朋友？我很想把我的全心放入这段感情中，你呢？

[` inLove ]

2008-05-25T18:24:00.000-07:00

i really didnt expect these things to happen.. i m sorry..

[` aLittlecontinuation ]

2008-05-23T18:24:00.000-07:00

was searching the web for all the songs that were inside moulin rouge and there is this song, Elephant Love Medley, is a mixture of many songs in fact and it was beautifully sung.. so i decided to find the individual songs and listen to them as their own.. then to my disappointment.. these songs are actually very old in time and the original singers are like buang!! haha..

there is this part in the song that sings : i was made for loving you baby u were made for loving mi... and the original singer for this song is call KISS and is a boy rock band.. hmm.. cannot say that they are boys but men.. haha.. and is a total cannot make it song when is sung in the old way!! haha.. another one is : we can be heroes, forever and ever.. the original version of it was like totally not what it is played in moulin rouge!! haha.. totally cannot make out what the original singer is trying to sing anyway.. the last one is my favourite!! Love lifts up where we belong. where eagles fly on a mountain high... it is call : up where we belong.. this one is more like it.. the mtv was great also.. it is an old movie theme song.. and that is the only one that i can relate to the newer version.. haha..

was bored and that is why i m doing all these stupid things!! haha.. wanted to continue my post on the damn long sadness one!! haha.. not wanting to get any attention or anything but then just wanna say that everything that i have written is for YOU!! haha.. but i m not going to reveal the name!! hehe.. some may know about it ba! cause i said i didnt know how to start my move so i was actually waiting for the right time or waiting for things to get clearer for mi before i made it clear.. but what i m wishing for is that u can come back to mi.. that is really a wish deep down in my heart..........

[` everythingIsgoneForreal ]

2008-05-22T11:32:00.000-07:00

不见了！不见了！不见了！什么东西都不见了！所有的，我曾拥有的都不见了！！全部都不见了！

[` whyAlltheseHappened ]

2008-05-21T21:53:00.000-07:00

i didnt know what had got into mi these days.. suddenly the sadness caught mi.. these days, i was thinking alot about someone.. everytime i about that someone, the next thing that i knew was that i was crying.. i dont know what to do.. i didnt know how to!! please help stop these tears!!

i seriously have no idea what m i to do now.. ppl tell mi to face it, try it again but i really dont know how.. everytime i see that person smile, i m happy.. but when it not because of mi, i start thinking to myself why m i not the one..! i m starting to lose my place.. yesterday, i wanted to give up on everything.. as long as that person is happy then it is okay for mi.. but i cried myself to sleep in the end.. how silly can i be??

everything i had done was not i wanted it to lead to this situation now.. can it be called regrets?? maybe.. i really do regret doing so many things..

come what may
come what may
i will love you
until the end of time..

[` inLovewithTheseSongs ]

2008-05-19T18:59:00.000-07:00

haha.. nothing much to post and today is Vesak Day and so is damn boring at home.. didnt want to do my projects.. haha.. so just wanna share some songs.. :)

伍家辉-虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否这我怎么肯放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

心还想着你
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Your Song - Ewan McGregor

My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on

So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is well I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Come What May - Ewan Mcgregor + Nicole Kidman

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything

Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

[` crazyDay ]

2008-05-17T10:12:00.000-07:00

wow.. these few days r like so very busy and madness.. haha.. firstly, 2 days ago.. my lesson starts in the afternoon, so i was at home till very late.. zhiqian came and tell mi to skip my school for the whole day but never tell mi why lor.. haha.. asked him on msn then never reply mi.. so i dont care him la.. haha.. then he blame mi say never msg him instead sia.. haha.. but whatever, i have to go school cause i got quiz.. haha.. anyhow do de la.. haha.. and then after school then went to find qian and weng.. haha.. a bit weird to find them together but anyway, yupp.. at first meet them at bugis de.. then in the mean while, met melisa at school then went down to bugis together.. had a very long talk.. haha.. never had such long talks with her le.. haha.. love it!! haha.. but then in the end, when we were on the bus le then qian they all say meet at city hall.. is like what the hell!! haha.. so had to go take train to meet them lor..

meet them liao then went to have dinner then waited for boon kor to come over to find us.. haha.. then the thing is that i was wearing skirt that day and i had to go up onto boon kor bike!! haha.. first time sia.. a bit uncomfortable la.. but then yupp.. cause we were going to paragon to find pearlyn and kaixin.. so unless i wanna go find them myself lor.. haha.. so when we arrive at paragon, pearlyn said then kaixin went home le!! haha.. then nothing to do le.. went to starbucks to slack.. drink drink talk talk play play.. haha.. mostly is crapping la.. haha.. so when it is time to go home, went to take bus with qian while the other 2 guys went back by themselves..

for that day, my phone was spoilt.. haha.. screen kept going blank and i cannot see anything at all.. but by the time i was going home, everything in my phone was like appearing backwards.. words were like starting for the right.. haha.. took mi very long to figure out what weiling ad xuehui ge is typing lor.. haha.. and i finally cannot take it anymore, i restart my phone and all i see is black color.. :(

so yupps i can confirm my phone is spoilt.. had to change to a old phone lor.. and i took the wrong one.. i took the one that is not able to make phone calls out.. haha.. then now for yesterday.. it was CCN day in school.. haha.. then xuehui ge wanted to enrol in my school so had him come during the afternoon when i finish school.. then went to see whether can register anot lor.. after that wanted him to walk with mi around the CCN fair.. haha.. was a little boring and i cannot find my CHEESECAKE BROWNIE!! :( so we walked ten went to breadboard to eat then show him that our school is connected to bedok reservoir.. haha.. he was fascinated.. then brought him to see those scary places in school.. haha.. then brought him opposite school to drink bubble tea and he ordered something that he dont like to drink.. STUPID!! haha.. then drink finish le he accompany mi take train back to bedok while i go back home.. haha.. it was very tiring for mi lor.. haha..

when i reached home, i had to pack my stuffs to prepare to go to michelle house le.. had a overnight shooting there.. it was very tiring cause had to prepare this and that then plus i had morning classes then had to shoot till like 11 plus 12.. but it was very fun with jasper and ashton with us.. everyone was like laughing at them.. haha.. so we finished everything about 12 plus and some of the crew went to sleep while mi jasper and ashton went back to crescent to eat supper.. and we were all very tired le.. was like walking and sleeping at the same time.. michelle room was very cold.. legs are like frozen to stone.. haha.. so now i had to continue with this scene now..

back to shooting!!

[` finallyDidit ]

2008-05-09T00:34:00.000-07:00

sorry for not updating..!! haha.. cause i m just waiting for this time.. hehe.. finally done whatever i have decided to do le.. SEE THIS!!

NICE?? hahaha..

haha.. nothing much to say la.. haha.. maybe more detailed update next time.. haha.. here are some pics take when bored!!

dont they all looked alike?? haha..

[` firstThingsinMylife ]

2008-04-29T21:40:00.000-07:00

did a very important choice today.. haha.. some ppl might think that it is a very stupid idea.. haha.. but then i think it is something that i wanna try it for once in my life!! haha..

I wanna have a TATTOO!!

haha.. that's all for today..

just wanna say that alot of things happened and they are all so fucked up!! really feel like dying le!!!

[ someNewupdatesFortheseDays ]

2008-04-27T22:40:00.000-07:00

just went to MAYDAY concert yesterday!!! it was like damn HIGH!! haha.. went with xuehui ge.. his first concert anyway.. haha.. but he enjoyed it as well.. haha.. LOVE the concert so much.. damn high and was so touch when he started singing 温柔.. everything just suddenly like stopped..

“如果有一天你对我说，你要离开我。我想我不会强求，我也不会再挽留。只因为，我所能给你最后，最美，也是最好的温柔。那就是，你会听到我对你说...”

that is when he continued with his song...
“我给你自由。我给你自由。我给你自由，我给你自由。我给你全部全部全部，全部自由！这是我的温柔，还给你的自由。这是我的温柔，还给你的自由...”

the whole concert is really a success but then to mi, i find that it is a little too short.. i was like just got so high then they already done with the whole concert le.. :(
haha.. yupp.. so i think that is what i really wanna share about.. haha.. do enjoy the video.. think u guys should like it..

最后，我也只是想说。我不知道应不应该放手。我其实已经试着要放手了，但是你的出现让我很舍不得。我们就一直这样下去吧。:)

[` lessonsLearnt ]

2008-04-17T19:49:00.000-07:00

有时候，喜欢一个人的感觉很模糊。如果当他意外看见我没穿衣服，我当然会想杀了他。但是我却更怕他觉得我身材不好。或如果当他在帮我做菜的时候，我在乎的却不是菜的味道好不好。这些心情是喜欢吗？如果喜欢的心意对方不懂，那怎么办？跟他说吗？一个人的改变常常是因为喜欢上一个人。我，改变了吗？因为你，有了更多从来没有的幼稚行为。因为你的幸福，开始学会退让的勇气。我改变了好多。原来我喜欢你好多好多。

有着最心动的距离，但是也只能隔着一寸空气。选择对你诚实却又怕诚实会破坏你的笑容。原来我根本没得选。只能在离开的最后让你记得我曾经为你努力过。当你相信一个人的眼神，就会开始有很多勇气。有勇气去反驳最可怕的父母，因为相信。有勇气第一次离开别人的保护，因为相信。我应该相信你吗？结果，我哭了。这些眼泪会掉下来，也是因为相信。人长大了就会有越来越多的没有。有越来越多没有可能办到的事。长大后，也有越来越多没有办法回应的话。长大后，又越来越多没有人照顾的时候。长大后，又越来越多没有理由的爱情挫折。人长大后真的有好多的没有。但是让人长大的，也是这些没有。

现在只有我一个人，一个人坐在一条小破船上，努力的划向爱情的海洋。但是我真的相信真爱是值得我付出努力的。不管结局如何，我是不是真的百分之百的努力过，我知道我绝对不会有遗憾。河水从来就不会逆流。我对你的感觉也不会回头。环境总会强迫一个人去显露连自己都讨厌的武装。其实这些讨厌的武装其实一碰就瓦解。因为在喜欢的人面前，无论是谁都是脆弱的。有很多我们坚持的事情都只是不清醒的在欺骗自己。坚持所做的决定是为了对方好，其实是在骗自己不会后悔。坚持凡事都要追求一百分才是成功，其实是在骗自己活在别人的评价下。我从这些坚持里醒来了吗？唤醒我的也许是一个不可能的奇迹。而让我真正清醒的，却是你坚持切进我的禁区的那一秒。你的坚持就是我唤醒自己的勇气。

这个世界很大很大，但是也可以只有两个人。两个人的世界可以比外面的世界温暖。因为拥抱会让温度互相传递。两个人的世界可以比外面容易快乐。因为快乐只需要对方的一个笑容。两个人的世界可以比外面的世界安静。因为你只听得到对方的声音。你让我好幸福。但是无论再幸福，我们却依然活在这个现实的世界里。当两个人的手紧握在一起，你跟我就会开始相通。你一字一句的受到责备就是我在受到责备。你的无所畏惧就是我的无所畏惧。你生命里可能的遗憾就是我害怕的遗憾。原来你跟我两个人其实就是一个人。你当初为了我面临的无助跟选择也是现在我所面临的无助。

如果真的让真爱跑了，我的心从今以后不会再跳，汗水不再有热情，吃饭不会有味道，一直到我死的那一天为止，我都会后悔。

这些感受，我都曾经深深体会过。我对你的感觉就在这里画下了句号了。或许你真的不是我在寻找的真爱。但是我真的没有后悔，因为我知道我曾经试着敲开你的心门，把那住在里面很久的她搬出来。我也终于知道我比不过她。

haha.. very sad rite?? haha. just some inside feelings for now.. haha.. all the above are from 斗牛，要不要. not that i want to copy la. haha.. but is just wanna share.. :)

[` messageInaBottle ]

2008-04-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

one movie to introduce.. :)

MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE is a from a novel by NICHOLAS SPARKS.. the story is tragic.. but is very beautiful.. is about how ones life can be complete when the right person turns up in front of you..

but unfortunately.. the show is not really as good as the book itself.. i think is the words that NICHOLAS SPARKS uses that really triggers the heart of ours.. :)
you guys out there might want to try out some other books by him..
THE NOTEBOOK, A WALK TO REMEMBER.. they are all very nice stories to have.. :)

[` forFunandLaughterpeaceAndjoy ]

2008-04-05T15:06:00.000-07:00

saw jasper blog then he tagged mi to do these quizzes.. haha.. so please do it if u see ur name okay?? haha..

QUIZ #1:

A. List 7 habits/ quirks/ facts about yourself.

- I burp put loudly without covering my mouth.. :)
- I love to act cute in front of my friends.. hahahaha!
- I love to sing.
- Music is my life!!
- I needs to play my mp3 in the bathroom when i bathe.
- Just fell in love with drinking..
- Clubster for now!! :)

B. Tag 7 people to do the same.

Angela
Shaowei
Weiling
Davin
Michelle
Lizhen
Favian

C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

QUIZ #2:

01.If you had a chance to go out with the person you like and your favourite celebrity for the whole day(separately), what would you do?

- Person I like, bring him to my special places..
- Celebrity, bring him to clubbing.. hahaha!

02.How do you feel now ?

- A little bored.. :)

03.If you can fulfil one wish , what would it be ?

- Be just a simple person, dont have to think or worry about anything..

04.Who are you thankful to ?

- my mom, friends, ppl in church, pastor ADAM!

05. Important wishes for now ?

- get a bike licence.
- then get a bike.
- get a sugardaddy. haha.. Just kidding la..
- have a job when i school starts.

06.If you can turn something in the past back , what would it be ?

- just for one particular event that i dont wish to say out here.. :)

07.What are your main priorities now ?

- my studies, friends.

08.What makes you happy?

- everything nice, friends, listening to music?? hahaa..

09.What do you wanna change in you ?

- my hair? if not then maybe my SIZE!! haha.. Skinnier!! haha..

10. What song can represent your feelings now..?

- ALL OF YOURS!! 旧梦!! 恋上另一个人!!

11.What type of person you hate most?

- BASTARDS!!

12. Are there anything you wish to confess now?

- My hopes for HIM!! :)

13. What is your definition of a dream house ?

- a house with 落地窗.. haha.. didnt know what the english word for that..

14. Who will you go to when you are feeling low one day ?

- my friends!!

15.What you hope to achieve?

- I want to do some productions.. maybe some stage manager or something..

16. What age do you wish to marry ?

- maybe 25 and above.

17.What do you regret most in your life ?

- there are many things i think i shouldnt have done them.

18.Who made you angry for the passed few days?

- no one!! haha..

19. If you have a chance to confess to the person you like without giving ur name what will you confess..?

- i will ask him whether did he ever feel anything towards mi??

20*. What happens when you suddenly left this earth and you came back in spirit, who will you go to first?

- the one i once cared for and loved deeply..

Instructions : Remove 1 question from above , and add in your personal question , Make it a total of 20 questions , then tag 8 people in your list ,list them out at the end of this post . Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged .Whoever has the tag will have blessings from all..

Angela
Shaowei
Weiling
Davin
Michelle
Lizhen
Favian
Melisa

[` lotsOffun ]

2008-04-02T18:56:00.000-07:00

it was such fun and scandalous day man.. haha.. everything was with evidence.. haha..

and huiyang is getting more and more sick.. haha.. with all the plot to video a story with jasper.. and the characters are all my stuff toys.. haha..

haha.. too bad the video couldnt upload but just wait for it in youtube man.. haha..

went to BUTTER FACTORY and it was quite happening.. haha.. can go again de.. haha..

[` blackParade ]

2008-03-30T22:49:00.000-07:00

just fall in love with this song..
WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE!!

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said,"Son when you grow up,
will you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"
He said"Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non believers,
the plans that they have made?"
Because one day I leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join the black parade."